There is always a "panic" feeling in the pit of my stomach just as I click on the "send" button to dispatch the newsletter. Even though I have gone over it a kazillion times and even had top notch proofing done for me, it is still a scary feeling. What if something is really wrong? What if it is ALL wrong? It happens. There is always something amiss or awry.
This is one of the ministries in my life that somehow just happened. In fact, the happening was more in the way of my volunteering. For an interim period. Interim is stretching -- it is well over a year now. It is not the newsletter that it could be; it is the newsletter that I can do. And really all I do is format and edit. Once in a while I write a piece. Not often.
And truth be told, the newsletter is not read. Not by many anyway. How do I know? I know. And how does that make me feel? Actually, as soon as the "panic" feeling disappears -- and that is seconds -- I consider it a done deal and turn my attention to the next project. Knowing that I have done the best that I am able, and in a timely fashion is enough. It is a worthwhile ministry for me.
HOWEVER, if someone were to come along and say, "Hey, you know, I really would like to take on the newsletter," I would be ecstatic. A new look, fresh energy, modern thinking, all would be good. Until then.................
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